We love our home. We are learning to love our home. Not love like "we love tacos", "we love our new car" or "we love our new house". No. Love like greater has no man than this than he who lays his life down for his friend. Love like perfect love casts out all fear. Love from Jesus - because He is the only one who can change hearts, He is the only one who truly breaks down barriers, He is the only one who holds us together. I've never been more aware of my need for this love.
It's been such an interesting few months for me. I grew up on the country...farm animals and all : ) I'm not a city girl, though I've liked to pretend I might be one over the years. There are a million places in the world that are more risky than where I live but it was still a massive adjustment for me and I still struggle with fear, especially if I'm home alone. But let's be real, what are we doing if we're not becoming more like Jesus? What are we doing if we're not depending on Him, abiding in Him, and seeking His presence? I'm not perfect at this but if I sit down and really think about it I'm thankful for an opportunity to see Jesus in a place where I never would have looked before. I'm thankful for an opportunity to have false mindsets challenged. I'm thankful for an opportunity to trust and abide. So often we think incorrect things without realizing it. I'm thankful for Jesus, the ever faithful, ever gentle, ever meek one who constantly loves and holds my heart as I learn to think, act and love differently.
This is a beautiful place. These are beautiful people. Is it messy? Yes. But just because I can see the mess right in front of my face doesn't mean it's any worse than the mess that's hiding nicely behind pretty houses, picket fences, and "put together" families. I'm determined to love without fear, without judgement, without pretense, without condition.